I am sorry Lord. Here I am once again, making a mess. Disorganized, lazy. Among so many other things. Cannot meet deadlines. Cannot seem to manage finances well. I feel so alone. Please be with me. I know I should learn each step of the way. I know I should be better all the time, strive to be better, at least. Please be with me. I feel like I am slumped down every other way. Any other way. I feel like I am being pulled down. I need the energy, Lord. I know I need to get up. I feel scared. When all this is going to end? I know there are opportunities. I know there are so many reasons to be thankful for. I am so sorry. I am so sorry for not fighting so well. I am so sorry for being so sloppy. Please Lord help me. I want to be the best that I can be for you. Basta Lord, daw may mga times nga gina tamad lang gid ko. I want to stick with my prayer time. I want to keep holding on to you. I cannot imagine a life without you. I cannot imagine getting ahead with my journey, without holding your hand. I want to feel your hand. Please hold me. I know this is all going to end anyway. I am just being lazy. Please Lord, be with me. Help me. Please send me something. Or maybe I should stop demanding for anything at all. I just want to be happy. I just want to at least stop worrying about money. How can that be possible? Please be with me. I know there is something that I can still do. I know that things are going to get better. I just need to keep up the fight. I just need to be braver. I just need to be more consistent with my schedule, with what I do. Please Lord, be with me. Please. Thank you Father. Thank you for being there. Thank you for not letting me go. Thank you for all wonderful things that have happened in my life. Thank you for taking care of me and my son. Thank you for being so patient with me. Thank you for a great future ahead of us. Thank you for giving us chance. Thank you for allowing me to experience love, to experience how it is to be cared for, to be thought about. Thank you for being our father who understands, loves and accepts us. Thank you.
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