Be with me Lord, in this time when I am trying to make a major decision. I cannot do this alone. I cannot to anything right without you. Please be with me I want you here by my side. Thank you for your love and affection.Thank you for your messages. Thank you for being so close, for staying so close. This is the first time I am ever doing something for myself, and trying not to think about others. All my life I thought deciding not to think about others is a sin. That thinking about myself is selfishness. That I should always have to forget about myself and offer myself for others. I don't know Lord. I am 38 now. I have to do something about my life. I want to be brave. I want to keep going and not be fazed with anything. I want to keep going and not stop.