Your existence means misery for us

Why do you always like making promises and always failing. I cannot even begin to tell you how stupid you are as a father, a  person. Why are you being the worst person that you can be? Is that all that you can do? Is that all you can manage to do? I wish you’re dead now, so we won’t have to be expecting anything, so that my son won’t have to be this broken. At least you’re dead. No point in waiting. I wish you’re dead, because you’re no use for anybody.  Sometimes I find it hard to pray for you na. it seems that It’s not working. Na luoy na ko sa imo. Pero right now na init ko kayo sa imo nga amo ka lang na. wala nag id da? Kung pwede lang, maka kita ko lain na trabaho, I will leave this place and find something for me and my son kag forever ka na namon indi Makita. Your presence means threat. Means loneliness. Means disappointment. Yes, such a huge disappointment. Are you okay with that? You happy with disappointing people around you over and over again? Sana kunin ka na ni Lord. Yes, I am very serious. I wish you’re dead. Kaluoy sa imo nga buhi ka pa. your existence means misery for us. If only I can say this to your face. I pity you kay amo lang na ang imo reality. I can’t believe I fell for someone like you. If only you can do something about your life without having to depend on anyone. If only you can try and do something about our life without having to expect anyone can do it for you. And yet you think pwede ta pa ka balikan? Yet you think I owe you my life? You really think I cannot be happy without you? How wrong you are. Just let me go. As soon as you stop buzzing around like an annoying mosquitoe, I can move on and forget all about you. As long as my son is happy and not expecting for your promises to be fulfilled, I will show you what moving on is all about.