Lord I offer him to you today, please bless him and take care of him. Please be with him and reveal yourself to him. Now that I have made my decision of finally moving on and turning a page in my life, I am even more heartbroken. This is final. This is it. No turning back. There is no chance of rebuilding the life I tried building with him. Well, I built it alone. On my own. He was always a little boy, dependent on me and what I can do for him. It was a life I hoped would work. I built dreams with him and he had his own dreams. We couldn't work it out. Thank you for not judging us for our wrong choices, for our mistakes. I honestly thought it could work. I honestly hoped he was the one. I knew so little. I understood so little about life. I haven't seen enough and experienced enough. I wish I didn't hurry. I wish I was more patient. I wish I was a little sad as a girl. I wish I didn't have to depend my loneliness on anyone, especially not him who was obviously not meant for me. We weren't fit for each other. He wanted so much while I wanted less. I wanted only him and our family. But he wanted more. He was looking out the fence and was forever wanting so much more. Please be with him. I just want him to be happy Lord. Please make him happy. I just want him to be okay. Makaya ko tanan e bear, padakuon ang bata namon, e make sure he will be fine if not completely happy. Just please take care of him na lang kay mas kinanglan nya na. Right now I am making this step. Because I want something new to happen in my life. It's been so long living in the dark, waiting for things to happen. Right now I will cause things to happen. Please Lord be with me. I do not want to make just another mistake.
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