praying for him once again

Lord I thank you today for our freedom. Freedom from the pain of the past, freedom from hatred. Freedom from envy and everything bad to feel about our life together. Freedom most of all from the bondage of what we used to call “love”. I thank you for my freedom from him. Please let me go already. I want to start moving. Thank you Lord for taking charge of our life. Thank you for being so patient with us. Thank you for making sure we survive every day. Please protect us from destruction. Please protect him from thinking of ugly things to do. Please grant him a clear mind and an open heart to understand everything and not rely on his own understanding and strength. Please guide him and be with him at all times. Please grant him to grace to accept you into his life and start learning things again. I pray for him to be happy and be peaceful in his life, to be contented and not just depend on others to survive. Please make him efficient and responsible. And not just think about himself. Please make him a responsible father to his son, no matter what has already happened to our marriage. Surely there are ways for him to become a good father to our son even if we are already separated. Lord I pray for your will to be done in his life.  You promised me of his conversion I am waiting for you to fulfill that Lord. He has become part of my life. Surely you will take care of him, too, as you have promised. If there is nothing good he can do to me and my son, then you better take him away. So he cannot create further damage. But I trust in your will. Ikaw na ang bahala Lord. Sino gid ko be? You know better than I. I trust in you and your love for us. Ikaw na ang bahala. Basta ako ga ingos ko sa imo kay nahadlok ko sa iya. Why would he send me happy new year greeting? When he was silent for the entire year not sending anything for his son. Ano pa gid ang gusto nya? Nakapoy na gid ko Lord sa iya. nakapoy na gid ko mag hala ka pakulba kada mag pa batyag sya. Wala ko ya sala sa iya. Maybe there are a  few but right now it is all very clear. There really is nothing for us, and he knows that.